I lied to you

I hung out with your ex boyfriend last night. I lied to you and told you that I stayed home. This is the first time I've ever really lied to you. It hurt a lot ot have to do it. I didn't do it because I wanted to though. I did it because I know you'd want me to. It's eating me up inside now. You're my best friend, I shouldn't have to lie. But he and I were friends, and I know you were hurt when he broke up with you, but it was your first love, it was going to hurt no matter what. It had to end eventually, and he was never cruel about it. He put up with your late night phone calls, and your crying and even worried when you weren't over it months later. He wasn't a bad guy. So why do you hate him so much? You told me I could be his friend if I wanted, but then when I tell you I E-mailed him, you asked why. Your tone tells me it bothers you that he's my friend. Well it bothers me that you're bothered. I knew him almost a year. He was with us all the time. He was part of our family, and I refuse to hate him just because he hurt you. You've got someone new, move on, forgive him. I can tell it's eating you up inside. I know it hurts. I've had my heart broken too, and I wish I could do something to make it better, but all I can do is lie to you.

I want to tell you that I tried Saki for the first time, and that I listened to Korean Karaoke. I want to tell you all about my night, but I can't because it would hurt you. Because you told me not to bring him up if I do see him. It'll come out eventually though. One day I'll mention something that happened last night, and you'll ask when that happened, and I'll confess. I don't like lying to my best friend even if you asked for it.

--by RRW513, Va, 03/30/2008