Effort

I don't know what to do anymore. You tell me in a text that you're really busy, but then you can't bother to pick up the phone. If you were my boyfriend I'd yell at you. I'd call you and tell you to make an effort or else I couldn't continue this. I don't know what this is yet though. I don't know if you'd care, and I don't really want to give up on you. I just know I can't spend my entire summer checking my phone every 5 minutes wondering if this time you'll respond or call. Wondering if I'll ever hear from you again. You always seem to reply just when I'm about to give up. I want us to work, I like you, but if you really like me you need to make an effort. Even if you call me at 4 am I'll be happy. Just a missed call from you once a week would show me that you do want to talk to me even if we never did get to talk. I may seem confidant to you, but secretly I'm insecure. I need to know that you want me to keep trying because right now I just feel like you're stringing me along, and if you don't want to be with me then just tell me to move on. It'll hurt, but what you're doing now hurts too.

--by RRW513, Va, 05/26/2008